(If you were like me you probably started singing that one song and dancing around when you read the title. If you are not like me (or don’t know that song).. I’m sorry to inform you of my insanity!)
The longer I am here the deeper I fall in love with the kids. Yes, they are crazy and sometimes it seems as if they are bouncing of the wall or using me as a jungle gym but I cannot help but love them. It is easy for me to like people but I think it is an entirely different thing for me to truly love someone. I admit that I do not love people like I should. I find myself getting more frustrated with people rather than loving them. This is what makes Jesus’ love so RADICAL. How could he love people who were so mean, cruel, and most of all selfish? It doesn’t make sense but yet it is so beautiful that it just leaves me in awe of what Jesus did by coming down to the world to die.
I’ve been talking a lot about being selfish in my posts lately. This is because the more that I focus on Jesus the more that I realize how selfish I am and that I am incapable of truly loving people like he loved people. I honestly couldn’t make it through a day remaining happy and positive without asking Jesus to give me energy and happiness. I realized that He could give me energy to keep up with 118 crazy children (all of whom believing that it is possible for me to give each one of them undivided attention at the same time). And if God can do all of this that means He can fill me with a deeper love for people than I ever thought possible.
True Love (I’m not talking about romantic love) is so much deeper than I feel like I can fully comprehend. Yet when I look at Danny (like I am right now) I cannot help but care so deeply about him and all the things that are going to happen in his life. During week of prayer (WOP is mostly in Bangla and is painfully long) I have a lot of time to think (or space out depending on how tired I am). Sometimes I just look at the kids and I think “Oh my word I love them so much!”
Before arriving at Bangla Hope my friend Kelsey (previous missionary) told me, “be careful those children will steal your heart.” At first, I didn’t know how I would survive living in the orphanage compound. The kids overwhelmed me; I couldn’t leave my house without being attacked. I sometimes felt like a famous movie star who was hiding from paparazzi. Of course they have all stolen my heart but I think I am just beginning to understand what Kelsey really meant. I am just beginning to understand a fraction of the love that Jesus feels for every one of us. I am just beginning to understand what love is.
“I’m absolutely convinced that nothing- nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable- absolutely nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us”
Romans 8:38-39 (The Message)
Now that is real unchangeable, uncomprehendible, and unfailing love!
The longer I am here the deeper I fall in love with the kids. Yes, they are crazy and sometimes it seems as if they are bouncing of the wall or using me as a jungle gym but I cannot help but love them. It is easy for me to like people but I think it is an entirely different thing for me to truly love someone. I admit that I do not love people like I should. I find myself getting more frustrated with people rather than loving them. This is what makes Jesus’ love so RADICAL. How could he love people who were so mean, cruel, and most of all selfish? It doesn’t make sense but yet it is so beautiful that it just leaves me in awe of what Jesus did by coming down to the world to die.
I’ve been talking a lot about being selfish in my posts lately. This is because the more that I focus on Jesus the more that I realize how selfish I am and that I am incapable of truly loving people like he loved people. I honestly couldn’t make it through a day remaining happy and positive without asking Jesus to give me energy and happiness. I realized that He could give me energy to keep up with 118 crazy children (all of whom believing that it is possible for me to give each one of them undivided attention at the same time). And if God can do all of this that means He can fill me with a deeper love for people than I ever thought possible.
True Love (I’m not talking about romantic love) is so much deeper than I feel like I can fully comprehend. Yet when I look at Danny (like I am right now) I cannot help but care so deeply about him and all the things that are going to happen in his life. During week of prayer (WOP is mostly in Bangla and is painfully long) I have a lot of time to think (or space out depending on how tired I am). Sometimes I just look at the kids and I think “Oh my word I love them so much!”
Before arriving at Bangla Hope my friend Kelsey (previous missionary) told me, “be careful those children will steal your heart.” At first, I didn’t know how I would survive living in the orphanage compound. The kids overwhelmed me; I couldn’t leave my house without being attacked. I sometimes felt like a famous movie star who was hiding from paparazzi. Of course they have all stolen my heart but I think I am just beginning to understand what Kelsey really meant. I am just beginning to understand a fraction of the love that Jesus feels for every one of us. I am just beginning to understand what love is.
“I’m absolutely convinced that nothing- nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable- absolutely nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us”
Romans 8:38-39 (The Message)
Now that is real unchangeable, uncomprehendible, and unfailing love!
Baby don't hurt me! Don't hurt me, No more! haha couldn't resist....
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